Currently researching this disgusting thing in humans that makes us hate each other when we show affection. Why do some feel this repulsive need to distance themselves and spread hate when another showed them love and makes them feel wanted?
I met an artist and I offered him a connection in New York. He was traveling soon and I wanted to help. Instead of being thankful and connecting with me, he distanced himself and made me feel as if we have more distance between us than we established. It was clearly a play on some type of facade which I am still bound to find out why in the hell… possibly some personal problems… there’s underlying hints on childhood trauma and mediocre friend circles who make him feel he needs to do this.
Staying away for a while to clear my head and gather myself although i’ve already lost my footing, and was completely taken off guard when he repeatedly called me selfish. My life‘s work is in helping people. Everything I do revolves around someone other than me. And because we’ve establish this inner circle between us I trusted him and his words. And these words hurt. Oh they hurt bad.
Protocol Behavior 